I have just walked in after an intense few days in the main office in Perth.
Those people really close to me, will know just how anxious I was about running the large scale, and incredibly important workshop I was involved with today.
It was not so much the deeply technical content that was worrying me, or the importance of driving out the right outcomes. What filled me with dread was the prospect of chairing a session with around 25 very smart colleagues, whilst working as myself, and facilitating the workshop. There was much talking involved and as many of you will know, my voice still bothers me, but it seems, it doesn’t bother anybody else, and if it does, they don’t let it show.
This was by far the largest and most important task I have completed since returning to work, and I was terrified. Like many previous occasions, the fear was shown to be baseless, the session went well and with some support from a line manager generous with her time, and talents we secured a good outcome. Phew….
So with a couple of huge days behind me, I was sat chatting with Jane and I became aware of a peculiar sensation that initially caused me concern.
When I first felt it, I reached to check my pulse out of profound fear. I have been expecting unusual symptoms, and side effects for many months. My pulse was, I am delighted to report strong and steady. The symptoms persisted and I chose to ignore them, in favour of reading the manual for our new Sewing Machine.
Over the course of the evening the sensations have become stronger, and therefore the symptoms are easier to identify.
It would appear that I am feeling Happy…..
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