In the light of some messages, comments and feedback after yesterdays post, I felt I should provide a further update.
The purpose of this Blog has always been to capture an open and honest record of all the experiences of transitioning.
The raw emotions I felt in the immediate aftermath of watching myself on camera is what you read yesterday.
The unsettling narrative to my experience on Saturday morning summarises the scale of the incongruence between how I feel, and how I look. Its painful to experience on a daily basis, and yesterday it was like seeing it through a powerful magnifying glass.
It has been improving, there is no doubt about that. I simply cannot imagine that three months ago I would even have sat in front of the camera at all.
Progress manifests itself in many ways, and is not always easy to recognise. In my life there has been so much change I think that the huge leaps of progress are masked, and rendered insignificant, by the simply epic proportions of the overall journey.
I am incredibly grateful for the love and support I receive. I also acknowledge that without it, I would have been lost long ago.
That so many people read my blog in itself is a great help. However the blog exists to share both the highs and the lows. I know that many people struggle in their daily lives. This journal is simply a window into a deeply personal experience, my transition to authenticity, and I thank you for sharing in it.
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